w00tsit-deactivated20130217 asked: For your anon! When we say that 'Loki is looking over our shoulder' or that we are interacting with Him in some way, that means we are interacting with Him, or He is interacting with us as one would with any other person. It means we can feel His presence as you would if someone were near you. Feel body heat as if you were truly pressed up against a solid human being. It's bringing the divine into the everyday and vice versa, and knowing then that we are not alone :) I hope this helped!
Anonymous asked: I really should know this, but I don't and I don't know who to ask so I found you scrolling the pagan tag. I hope it's okay I ask. Ignore me if i'm bothering you. When people say they have a personal connection with their patron gods what do they mean? Like people say things like "Loki is always over my shoulder" and things of that nature and I'm genuinely confused as to what they mean. Thank you so much in advance.
I’m not quite sure myself, and I’m trying to figure that out. I think it means that people can feel his presence, and sort of…interact with him somehow?
Like I said, I don’t know exactly. I’m basically chasing something I don’t understand, which is quite nerve-wracking and confusing. But oh well. Hopefully I’ll get it all figured out eventually.
If someone wants to explain it to me and Anon more accurately, please do.
It’s really hard to find a happy medium between apathy and complete perfectionism and over-extending myself. It’s like I have to be one or the other because there’s nothing else I can be. And if I do manage to do something between the two extremes, there’s this little (or, often not-so-little) nagging voice that tells me I should be better, and that I’m being lazy or foolish because I could be putting in more effort. Actually, that voice is still there no matter how hard I’m trying.
Gah. *bangs head on wall*
The past few nights I’ve tried the same thing I’ve been doing — a very ritualistic meditation, repeating the same preparation and process every time. It hasn’t been working. I’ve been incredibly distracted, nothing has been remotely clear or significant, and I think it’s because I should be doing something else. Perhaps the structure and ritual of this initial process was okay to start out with, but now that I’ve made a bit of contact, Loki would prefer more spontaneity and less rigidness. Now that I think of it, calling on Him the same time and the same way each night is really not very effective, as I know that that’s not His style at all. I shouldn’t expect Him to show up at the same time each night as if we have standing appointments or something. I’m going to try to be much less rigid and ritualistic, and just focus on being sincere and genuine. And, I’ll communicate through tarot until I feel (or until He tells me) that it’s time to add something else to the mix or focus on some other way of communicating. I’ll continue to make artwork in His name and write down my thoughts to sort things out, both here and in my journal. I’ll honor Him with sincere, heartfelt, and spontaneous expressions of appreciation. Whenever I feel I want to do something devotional or attempt to communicate, that’s when I’ll do it. I’ll no longer hold myself to a strict process and I’ll simply do what comes naturally. Hopefully this is a step in the right direction, and hopefully it will help me to learn how to stop worrying so much about doing things perfectly.
So many new Lokeans! In the tags and now on my dashboard :D Soon Loki’s gonna have enough of us newbies to make an army.
Yes, that was intentional.
I’ve gone and written out the basic meanings and key words/phrases for the suit of Cups. I was rather surprised to find out that all the negative cards related to me perfectly. I guess that sort of gives me an indication of what I should work on first in terms of self-development. I’ll take the same sort of notes on Wands tomorrow.
I think tonight I’ll put out a slice of chocolate cheesecake — cause, I mean really, who doesn’t like chocolate cheesecake? But I’m not sure what I should do with it afterwards; that’s not really something that I can leave lying on the dresser without arousing suspicion. Would it be okay to eat it after a couple hours meditating…? If I can, I’ll just ask Loki what I should do about it. If not, I’ll just go with what feels right.
Also, I think I need to stop worrying about getting things wrong or doing things right. But, that might just lead to me worrying about how I’m doing things wrong because I’m worrying about doing things right. Loki, knock that out of my head, please.
I was considering doing a reading or two to try and communicate with Loki, but I think I’ll wait to do that until I’ve written out all the meanings of each card in my notebook so that I can refer to it as I’m interpreting the readings. Also, that will give me a chance to reflect on each suit and card before trying to use them to communicate, which I think will be helpful.
I’ll still draw the one card from the Major Arcana. I’ll check out what my tarot book suggests for a meditation on that card, and if I think it would be helpful or relevant then I’ll go ahead and do it. Otherwise, I think I’m going to try to see if I can read that paper that Loki dropped in front of me the other day. I’m guessing I’ve hung onto it? I hope so, anyway. I might also try to meditate on the suit of Cups and see what happens there.
Does anyone have any suggestions for better meditations? I’d especially like advice for learning how get better at visualization, and have the things I imagine in meditations be more vivid.
Because Loki told me to learn the Minor Arcana so that I can actually use it, I’m thinking that He’s going to be communicating with me through tarot a lot, at least maybe at first. I’ve gone and set up a notebook for learning the cards. I’ve set out a space for each suit, describing the suit at the top of the page and then leaving spaces where I can write down some basic information about each card — kind of a Minor Arcana cheat sheet. I’m thinking I’ll also maybe write a more extensive analysis for each card, or at least the ones that are challenging or especially significant to me.
I’ve been thinking about the way Loki presented the cards, and the order of the suits: Cups, Wands, Swords, Pentacles. I think it’s meant to show me what I need to focus on most and how to go about progressing things. The associations of the suit of Cups need the most attention, and then Wands, and so on. It’s accurate, anyway. I definitely need to focus on my intuition and the spiritual, meditative side of things, and also work on being more receptive. I also think it speaks of a need to strengthen my faith in all this. I’ve just started out and my skeptical nature sometimes gets in the way. I think it’s only when I’ve improved upon the things associated with the Cups that I’ll be able to really communicate with Loki — water stands in the way of fire. And of course, the Wand’s associations need attention after Cups. I need more spark, energy, drive and courage. I have a feeling that Loki will be able to help out with this. And as for Swords, I think that means that after I’ve established the Cups and Wands sort of things, I’ll need to cut down any illusions, really focus on finding truth, and clear out any self-deception. This part, I think, will be the most difficult. This is where I’ll be broken down to bits so that I can be built up again, and where I’ll have to wrestle with the things I’ve kept buried and shut out. I’m not sure what need the Pentacles represents, but I think it probably has something to do with becoming more whole, and maybe more grounded with a more firmly established…something or other. I’m sure it will make sense once I get to it. It’s a bit hard to look past Swords, honestly, because there’s a huge block there.
I’m really glad I’ve got some direction now. And, I’ve got this Minor Arcana assignment as a way to get started. Thanks, Loki ~
I think — I think — I met with Loki tonight. I wrote it all down in a journal, but I’m just so incredibly excited that I have to share it here, too —
Currently waiting for everyone to go to sleep so that I can do tonight’s meditation without fear of being interrupted. I’m not sure what to give as an offering — I was considering filling a shot glass with some sort of alcohol, but that would feel weird as I don’t drink and I wouldn’t know what’s good or bad. Not to mention, if my parents found it and thought I’d been sneaking drinks, I’d be in a tough situation. I’ve heard he likes coffee, but there’s a similar problem because I don’t drink it myself and I don’t know exactly how to brew it. I’m wondering if just a small cup of straight up coffee beans would be okay?
I started a painting for him tonight. It’s just a picture of fire; I wasn’t sure what else would make sense. It’s about halfway done. I also wrote a poem for him yesterday, sort of expressing my faith and trust in him. And I made cookies, but they turned out just okay.
I’m not quite sure what else I should be doing. Just doing a bunch of offerings and meditations seems…I don’t know. Sort of stagnant. I don’t know if it’s going to make much progress. It certainly hasn’t opened up much communication so far. Do you guys think I’m doing things right? What else can I do?